It took me a while to come to terms with my “friends in my head” to trust and yes even love them. I remember before knowing that I had DID and while I was still somewhat stuck in believing in God, religion, etc. I thought the voices were ghosts or maybe even aliens communicating with me. I knew they were there I knew they were real I just didn’t realize they saved my life in so many way and a multitude of times. Some of them hold the most traumatic memories and others hold none. This was the only way for me to survive. Some of my parts took the violent abuses (sexual, emotional, physical, religious) so others could live as normal a life as possible in such a tragic situtation. I now thank them everyday for saving this body, this vessel we all inhabit and use to live our lives. This is what I wanted to put out there today for others not coping well with their “friends in their heads” and to let mine know that I love you all and could never repay you for what y’all went through for the greater good of us all.
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I was a victim until I learned to be a survivor through creativity. My art and poetry taught me how to become more than I ever thought possible. I am a survivor of emotional, physical, sexual, and violent abuse. Trauma is the only thing I have known throughout my life. I was born into abuse and lived in it even throughout most of my adult life. I am an advocate of mental health especially dissociative disorders. I am plural, we are many in one body. I have Dissociative Identity Disorder, DID, and want to be a part of the community I belong to with this disorder that helps to stop the stigma against this disorder. I want to raise awareness and help others see what DID really is to those who have it. My parts are my family they saved me. My brain did what it did for me at such a young age to save me from the abuses I was suffering. I am as open as I can be now about this to help inform others and also show those that have this disorder and who have gone through the traumas that cause this that there's hope and a community to turn to. My art and poetry are the main things that will be displayed in this blog, but I also hope to add some educational materials for others to look into and see the truths behind DID not the sensationalized stigmas that are out there about DID. I hope you enjoy the poetry and art that comes from such deep emotions and pain. If it just resonates with one person than I have accomplished exactly what I wanted to. View all posts by The Multifarious Mind