Author: The Multifarious Mind

I was a victim until I learned to be a survivor through creativity. My art and poetry taught me how to become more than I ever thought possible. I am a survivor of emotional, physical, sexual, and violent abuse. Trauma is the only thing I have known throughout my life. I was born into abuse and lived in it even throughout most of my adult life. I am an advocate of mental health especially dissociative disorders. I am plural, we are many in one body. I have Dissociative Identity Disorder, DID, and want to be a part of the community I belong to with this disorder that helps to stop the stigma against this disorder. I want to raise awareness and help others see what DID really is to those who have it. My parts are my family they saved me. My brain did what it did for me at such a young age to save me from the abuses I was suffering. I am as open as I can be now about this to help inform others and also show those that have this disorder and who have gone through the traumas that cause this that there's hope and a community to turn to. My art and poetry are the main things that will be displayed in this blog, but I also hope to add some educational materials for others to look into and see the truths behind DID not the sensationalized stigmas that are out there about DID. I hope you enjoy the poetry and art that comes from such deep emotions and pain. If it just resonates with one person than I have accomplished exactly what I wanted to.

Newest work

First times

This is my first try at string pulls with my fluid art. First times can bring about many different emotions. I was happy for finally being brave enough to try this, disappointed that it wasn’t perfect on my first try (perfectionism can be hell), and proud that I still decided to share my imperfect first […]

My first painting in this style of artwork bigger than 8×10.

Music and art is the therapy needed for my mental illness. I get into the music and let the paint flow. The feeling of the paint on my hands and the sound of the music flowing through me is what helps me get through the worst of times and settles the anxiety within me.

Today’s art. Some background music with the video.

I was rocking with my music and loving the painting I did today.

Mental health isn’t the only issue

Hello all, well my mental health isn’t the only issues I have to deal with. Along with DID, CPTSD, and anxiety I also deal with chronic pain from fibromyalgia, chronic headaches, post traumatic epilepsy due to a severe beating in a home invasion which I will write about another time, back issues, bladder issues, and […]

Derealization/Depersonalization new experiences with my DID

Well yesterday was a new day and new experience for my DID. I have never felt like this before without the help of some pretty hard drugs. I had no clue what it was or what was happening at the moment which of course the unknowing just made things so much worse. We went out […]

To those that saved me and for the one’s that might be saving you.

It took me a while to come to terms with my “friends in my head” to trust and yes even love them. I remember before knowing that I had DID and while I was still somewhat stuck in believing in God, religion, etc. I thought the voices were ghosts or maybe even aliens communicating with […]

Artwork

Creations from Pain

A collective work of many minds in one body. By: The Multifarious Mind Give Up Give up is what it tells me, as it calls me to its embrace. Why do you fight? That’s what it asks, as the tears roll down my face. Come to me my child, my darkness will pull you in. […]

Featured

My First Blog Post

Be yourself; Everyone else is already taken. — Oscar Wilde. This is the first post on my new blog. I’m just getting this new blog going, so stay tuned for more. I am totally new at this so changes may continue until I get it like I want. Bare with me, understanding and patience is […]